So I done threw my back out, and I failed to secure a place to move to. So I’m moving to the family farm, in pain, and will likely stay in a tent like I was occupying the farm for a political cause beyond casual homelessness. The farm house is still largely in ruins from a house fire a few years ago.

There’s still some options, an enormous apartment/house full of college undergrads may have a room for me. I’ll take it though it will mean surrendering my pet cat. Echo will have to stay on the farm a bit.

Is this sigil magic gone wrong? As a magician am I not supposed to have all things go my way?

Well, the thing to understand is that magic is about the result, the how is up to you. The back issue for example, it only happens to me when I’ve put on weight. And while I have the ambition to be lithe and athletic, my body’s natural path of least resistance is something more stocky. Sigl magic applied to the ‘problem’ is dangerous, precisely because of how sigil magic is effective. Because done right, the sigil does its thing with minimum interferance from the conscious mind. Magic often will not work because the conscious mind is conflicted or anxious, but also the conscious mind in the magical process serves as a protection as well.

Without that protection, a sigil spell to lose weight will attack the problem straight on: changing my conscious mind, the primary barrier I have to achieving that lithe athletic build. And this much is DONE. How so? Because my back HURTS! And I know from my own experience, THIS (my having ‘spontaneous’ back problems [I was geting a sock and had to sneeze is how I thre my back out]) -ONLY HAPPENS WHEN I HAVE GOTTEN FAT AND HAVE NOT BEEN PHYSICALLY ACTIVE.

So now I’m all on board, I have to lose weight and become more physically active. The pain in my back has reminded me. Because I am consciously aware of this, it will happen. Because my vanity isn’t strong enough, especially given my once long term boyfriend when we were together – PREFERRED me chubby. But health is another thing entirely, I need to be able to run, jump and ride my skateboard pain free. And boy is this back pain a reminder it’s not okay to let myself get heavier, just because it is winter.

So is the sigil magic a failure for me?

Well, standing in “there is no truth”, it’s very possible magic is just placebo and otherwise unreal in an objective sense of reality. So let’s just look at how a magic practice has shaped my appreciation of my experience.

My back pain could be interpreted by me as “I’m getting old, I need to take it easy, my body is breaking down and isn’t what it once was”. And that interpretation is perfectly reasonable, but the conclusion is, to me, an unpleasant one.

Because I use magic and know at some point I cast a spell relating to my health, vigour, strength and sex appeal, and cast a spell relating to maintaining or improving my lifestyle -these ideas have been primed in my consciousness. So if I have a back ache, because I’m expecting to get healthier, I focus on how this is motivating me to be healthier and experience the problem as a step towards health as opposed to away from health. I’m homeless today with only a tent to move into, but because of magic I’m expecting an improvment to mty lifestyle and I have to interpret the loss of one living context as necessary to allow that change.

Magic is very useful to a magician for psychological reasons alone. Magic is a tool to maintain optimism and forward thinking. The idea of magic invites the idea that personal responsbility for how your life turns out is possible! Hacking reality as you might a game!

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Stephen Colbert’s mother has fallen ill and the show, Colbert Report, has been interrupted as the host takes time with his Mother.

The Colbert report is a very popular program and most of my readers I expect have some familiarity with the comedian and his ‘faux right wing’ persona. If you don’t know, Stephen Colbert satirizes the right wing pundit, such as those on FOX TV. But unlike John Stewart or other comedians that satirize right wing politics while clearly establishing a liberal bias, Stephen Colbert satirizes the right wing pundit by pretending to BE ONE!

How does this relates to Chaos magic and the idea of glamour magic? First, I’m using the word “glamour” as used in the folk myths of the fairie folk. In that mythology a human would find someone beautiful that in reality was not, or find a residence extrvagant that was really quite modest or even impoverished- and the illusion is labelled, “a glamour’. In a more relevant sense, glamour is creating an impression of being something you may not be, or of the person you want to be.

How Stephen Colbert relates to the concept os glamour magic is simple, he is an expert! How so? Because people that are Republican and right wing – THEY OFTEN THINK HE IS TOO!  Super conservative pundits that would NEVER be a guest on John Stewart’s Daily Show, they will be guests on the Colbert Report!  Because even if they understand Colbert is satire, his pretend conservatism is enough for them to feel comfortable, it’s enough for them to understand viewers of the show.. could be THEIR VOTERS!

Because for many human beings, the surface is as far as they go!

So, how can this be of use to you? Simple, you want to influence someone? Try to adjust your tone of voice and vocal patter..to theirs! If they are Conservative, you are conservative. If they are religious, you are religious. If they hate Corporations, you hate corporations. And guess what… you will get listened to! If you are in sales, you might make that sale!

This is harder to do if you are making a video or promoting something online. How you present yourself to match your audience, it’s simply not possible. But this is where fashion becomes power. Because how you present yourself has power, it shapes expectations and colors who you get to associate with and the opportunities that come to you.

For example, if you turn your hair into dread locks and wear tie die shirts – this becomes a social filter that allows you to smoke more pot and get access to more fun drugs andpeople of that milieu.

If you wear a suit, you get to be ‘professional’ and command a sense of respect. That’s the cultural dictate, it’s why some jobs REQUIRE a suit, usually high paid jobs or really low paid jobs in sales (where presentation is everything).

Politics is also about glamour, the Democrats are ‘Mommy’ and the Republicans are ‘Daddy’. And, very often gender influences who a person votes for. I’m waiting for someone to have the wisdom to sell progressive politics with MASCULINE glamour, harp on patriotism, accuse the opponent of ‘treason’ and pitch equal opportunity being the AMERICAN way, and corporatism being fascism! It would be a very powerful political sales technique!

Me, I’m an artist, writer.  My vision for dress is a three piece suit – black and customized with spikes and studs akin to what a punk would sport on a leather jacket. That would play with impressions and to my benefit I believe. My day job is a telephone market research gig so my looks are actually irrelevant in relation to job.

The catch-22 of magic is that lust for result will sabotage any result. And if you NEED a spell to work! NOW! It is often a guarantee that it absolutely will never work for you!

Sigil magic might work, but if the problem is so important to you, it is almost impossible to ‘forget’. And to not be attached to the result, to ‘know’ a spell worked so well you need not think about it – that’s almost impossible for YOUR problem.

This is why Hoodoo is usually a commercial enterprise. If you PAY for a spell, this creates an expectation of value for your purchase, the exchange of money in and of itself has magical impact. And anyone that casts a spell for YOU, doesn’t care one way or another intrinsically about your result, they can focus simply on the law of attraction and ‘be’ that the spell worked. And yes, usually the spell will WORK this way!

So, in your case, unless you know and trust someone that casts spells professionally – it helps to have a friend. A friend that is open to casting spells. Because guess what that can do for YOU! It gives you a disinterested party that can cast the spell on your behalf. THEY can be as disinterested and non attached as the caster of a powerful spell should be, because it’s not THEIR issue! And YOU, you may be their friend, but you really are not nearly as obsessed with their love life or rent as THEY are – you can cast a very powerful spell for THEM in exchange!

If you have a magical path already that suits you well, please use that! If you have none, Sigil magic is simple practical and very powerful! Information on Sigil magic is here! 

I eliminated the SMF forum, it was buggy. It had an awesome number of people registering for it, but I suppose a forum may require a sold group of friends to get it started, and I’m just one guy.

So the new forum is not just a forum – but a Drupal installation! Got it installed, updated and basically configure in about 3 hours. Not bad!

What this mans to YOU, is YOU can create content for this site! Your Blogs, Your Articles, Your Forum! Not kidding! And it will only get better! Go to My KitschChaos – Right Now!

So, I’m working out the book I’m going to write. If you’ve been reading this site, on one hand it may seem like I’m not offering anything really new in the book. And I know this even before I write the first word, because a lot of the content will be from this site.

Also if you’ve been reading this site, some of the ideas may seem more familiar from sales, self help or Law of Attraction than from classically ’occult’ sources. Allow me to blame Aleister Crowley, who distinguished ’magick’ as an act of will, any such act of will, including the blowing of one’s nose.

As a consequence of being introduced to that thought of Crowley’s  at a young age, it’s had an awful long time to peculate in my brain. Magic isn’t a fantastic thing like in Dungeons and Dragons, it’s a father losing his job and assuring his family they will be okay! Because if it your will to shoot fire from your finger tips, seriously the thing to do is to procure a flame thrower. Magic is any act of will, at is best it is  taking a stand that you can have a say in how your life turns out.

What of the supernatural? It is part of the real world, and even if you do not believe in a supernatural, it is concrete and real as an idea. And a cornerstone of chaos magic is the use your belief rather than be limited by it. If you can cry in response to a movie’s fantasy, if you can feel anxiety on behalf of a fantasy character in a fantasy circumstance – guess what? A movie maker or author has command over your belief! How can you believe you have any less command?

Children are natural magicians. And if you an adult, you once were a child and that part of you lives still and remembers! So it is a game, try believing in magic, do some magic and see what happens? Do you get your result?

If you don’t get your result, what did you do? And here’s where we get to the meat of the problem. Magic is not spell casting, magic is what happens before and after. If you cast a spell for money, are you actually working or gambling or running a business? If not, how do you expect money to come to you? This is called a path of least resistance, if the spell is powerful and you provide no easy means for the money to come to you, winning the lawsuit but not being able to ever walk again is a messed up way to get your money.

But it’s deeper than even that. Because what we really want are experiences. We want to be desired, admired, to have power and great friends. The heart of the best magic is knowing what you really want. And the problem with knowing what you want is that you are likely no match, not yet, for what it is you want. If you want to be desired, you have to love yourself first. If you want to be admired, you have to establish admirable virtues. If you want power, you have the have the courage to accept responsibility and the capacity to fulfill your responsibilities.

It’s a matter of will. What do you want, and who do you have to be to have that? How can you get from who you are now to where you want to be? And if magic is more than psychological priming (not that psychological priming isn’t potent and useful in its own right), it can only hack probability at best, produce an opportunity. Spells cannot give you what you are not ready for. Who you are may not be a match for what you want.  But magic need not be limited to spells! If you want a hot sex with a hot girl and happen to be overweight, what is stopping you from working out and eating a healthier diet?

And here’s how magic becomes a self help paradigm. Because to attract someone that is hot because they are hot in a superficial sense, it requires you yourself be hot in a superficial sense. Unless you can really believe you are hot with an extra 100 lbs, then the confidence may find you the person you think is hot that agrees with you. It’s a real world sexual fetish, the ‘chubby chaser’, but if you believe you are a hideous fat man – even a chubby chaser will believe you. And if you have heath problem and are overweight, maybe heath is what you want and need – what is stopping you?

And magic is critically important to personal transformation. That’s why Alcoholics anonymous will not relinquish GOD. And understand that as far as I’m concerned, working with God is also magic! When we do not know, we can fail to believe in ourselves – and we then we need something. And that something is magic, no matter what you call it. And there’s understanding your circumstances, which fear can obfuscate.

So of course magic should be akin to a self help paradigm! Because what we want are circumstances, and to have the circumstances requires being who we want to be, not just having what we want to have. Depending on who your are being, it may be impossible to have what you want!

Any spell is, or should be, a call to action. Because magic follows a path of least resistance, and the best magicians craft a path of least resistance for the magic t follow. If I want to be a successful cartoonist – I have to buckle down and create some good work, or else I may lose my life and the cartoons I’ve already done will win me fame posthumously! Magic is both a cookie, yes you can! – and a stick, or else! Especially Sigil magic, because it evades your self protection strategies of obfuscating your will by taking the desire straight to your subconscious/unconscious!